The Shape of a Miracle 02/12/2011

I am an in-between person; a person who is early retired and searching for a new job. That is what I call an in-between person. Because of my in-between status I took a temporary job during the holiday season. The path I walked was not an easy one with that job. And now, as I near a new job with similar level difficulty I look towards this as a challenge that I am not eager to take.

Since the path I walked was very difficult in the temporary seasonal job, I learned just how much a physical job impacts my body. God alone held me up as I walked the warehouse floors and breathed the dusty, dirty environment. And, the challenges I faced seemed insurmountable as I struggled to communicate in an environment as loud and noisy as it was dusty and dirty.

However, there was a greater purpose than earning money in the path I walked. Because of my voice disability it does not lessen the need to talk to people, even in a difficult setting. They are curious and I am more than willing to tell my story; especially how God strengthened me and enabled me to walk out this path.

In conclusion I am willing to go where God sends me. I remember praying to God and many times offering myself to Him. Send Me, I said to God. I will go where You send me and speak to those people sent to me of Your sustaining power. However, in my mind I was picturing telling my story after my miracle of a complete restoration of my cancer induced voice-loss; instead I tell my story in my current state --- voice challenged.

This current state is one of weakness, dependency, complete reliance on God for each day. That is where I live; needing God each moment. And because of this state, I wonder now if God intended all along that the miracle I sought and the miracle He gave were one in the same after all. My miracle was a restored voice, beautiful, one that would rival even an angle's voice; His miracle is a restored soul. Either way, my life is a miracle.

Since the cancer and the loss of my vocal chords, I have been privileged to speak to business groups, teens, unwed mothers, Christian groups, and co-workers, nursing students, and fellow cancer victims; to large groups and small ones. Now it seems my greatest audiences are people. One on one contacts; a new job making new friends, learning about each other, sharing my story. In the end, sharing God.

God has truly given me a miracle; His love reaching out through my physical challenges.

And yes I thank Him and I have truly received a miracle!

02/12/2011