Saturday, January 28, 2012

Smallville Finale

I finished the final season of Smallville! After 10 seasons the series has been brought to a close.

I have completely enjoyed watching Clark Kent transform from farm boy to superman in ten short years. The cast, directors, costumes, and settings have been superb! And aside from Clark's frustrating teenage years of unfulfilled longing for Lana Lang, the story continued to interweave and unfold into a beautifully written saga.

Each season created true to life stories of people, of families with similar struggles yet together overcoming the great obstacles that came their way. The closely knit family and circle of friends forged life long bonds of trust that brought inspiration to the series viewers.

The fantasy of Super Heros didn't seem very far fetched which brought a refreshing joy that caused even the skeptical to embrace the faith these super guys and gals gave the world.

At the finale of it all, I was left satisfied and happy. As I slowly walked over to the DVD player and carefully removed my treasured disc and replaced it into its secure holder, I also said goodbye to friends I made through these ten years. Friends I could trust and friends who brought me inspiration in their sacrifices and goodness.

This is a good farewell, not sad at all. And most significantly, as the finale ends it leaves an imprint. For me, that imprint is a smile.

Goodbye Smallville; it's been a great ten seasons! See you in the comic books!

A devoted fan.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

Loss, Tragedy & Triumph 01/2008

Loss is a huge part of living. Without loss we do not really live. Loss ensures that we learn, adjust, grow, and give. Loss ensures that we are drawn to the living, loving God. Loss and pain ensures we identify with the man of sorrows, Jesus. Our loss, our pain, and our tragedy encourages us to check ourselves, evaluate our priorities, and ultimately use that loss to encourage others.

I recently watched a religious channel, PTL. This program featured guests who had experienced loss in their lives. Many of the guests had triumphed over their losses and tragedies and were living examples of victory.

As I watched and listened to each speaker, I was awash with a variety of emotions. First, it was awe, then inspiration, then shame as I will explain later. Ultimately I was overwhelmed with tears at the horrible suffering of these dear people. However, I also shed tears of joy when they shared how they were able and are continuing to share with others to encourage them in the tragedies of life they face.

For example, the first guest I saw when I tuned in was my mentor, Joni Eareckson Tada. Joni has been a quadriplegic since a diving accident as a teen. She is now in her early 60's and a very beautiful woman. No use of any of her limbs at all. Through physical therapy she is able to move her arms for expression when speaking. As some of you may know she learned to write and draw and paint with a pen and paintbrush held in her mouth. She has written several books, speaks, and has a ministry, Joni & Friends. She also has a worldwide outreach to disabled people. She is a living, breathing human being who suffered so much. Not only has she been in a wheelchair since her teen years, she suffered so much pain and surgeries through her life. As the reality sank in that she would never be normal again, she drifted into despair. However, coming to know God changed everything about her life.

Next a young beautiful woman, Jennifer Rothschild, who became blind at age 15. She is now married and has children. But she has never seen the face of her husband or precious children. Her testimony is similar to Joni's. She is gracious and full of the love of God.

Now the TV screen shows a handsome young man from Australia with a wonderful smile. He has no legs or arms. He ministers all around the world and is able to go into countries where most Christians are not allowed. Because of his testimony, thousands of people have come to know Christ.

I could continue but the tears are flowing, not out of sorrow for these dear, precious ones but because of my shame. If you know me, then you know I had cancer at the tender age of 25 and lost my natural voice as a result. I breathe through my neck and speak with esophageal voice. To meet me, look at me, you would never know. Only when I speak you may notice I sound a bit unique, a raspy type of voice. But this tragedy in my life did indeed change me.

However, the shame I spoke of earlier stems from my loss not always bring triumph or encouragement to others. There are days, even weeks, where I sink into self pity, self doubt, feelings of inadequacies and hopelessness. I wonder when they day will come that God will perform that one miracle that would be so easy for Him and mean the world to me. But it has not come. I see these others who have suffered so much more compared to me and I am ashamed. Yet, I am encouraged and inspired that perhaps I too, could rise to the calling to be an encouragement and inspiration to those around me. A stranger at the store, a neighbor, a patron at the gym, anyone who is crying out in their own hurt and loss who needs a smile, a word to say, God Loves You, you are special and uniquel you have a purpose in your life. Such a high calling that God has given you to allow you to have such a loss is the way in which He chooses to bring about that purpose.

I am not a theologian, but I do know without a doubt that growth, character, and maturity does not come cheap; it is very costly. Although, too I cannot explain the mysteries of God nor can I answer all the questions you may have but I can say that God uses these experiences to make us usable.

Do we give our children sugar, chocolate, cola, cake and expect them to be healthy and have good teeth? No, we give them vegetables, meat, salads, milk, water; all the good things of the earth to ensure their growth. Likewise, God does not give us a life without pain or sorrow, because if we lived that way, we would not grow. We would remain babies looking for the sweets. And we would be spoiled with decaying teeth, and absolutely useless to His kingdom.

Tragedy and loss does not always mean the loss of a body part. It could be a loss of someone you love deeply. A loss such as your job or home or even your reputation. A loss of divorce or friendship. Whatever you lose, you are on your way to drawing nearer to God because He is drawing near to you. Scripture says that God hears the cries of those with a contrite and broken spirit.

Be of good courage, for in Psalm 145:14, God says that the Lord upholds all those who fall and lifts up all who are bowed down. And do you not see that is how and why these precious people with loss and tragedy I mentioned are able to walk in triumph. Not only for themselves but for all those they touch.

As for me, there were several years I gave talks to groups and shared my testimony with so many. I was so happy God used such a small person as myself to share with others. I hope that one day soon, I can step back into that calling.

01/2008

Storms of Life 01/2011

Many of us and probably all of us have weathered storms. Not storms with thunder clouds and lightening bolts but storms of life. These storms roll in and strike us, disabling us from our normal lives. Often the storms disable us from service to God as well. We ask ourselves why? why these storm clouds gather over us. We are God's children; are we not protected under His sheltering arms? Of all of God's promises in Scripture we find safe harbor, refuge, strength during our weaknesses, answers to prayers, His abiding Presence, and His peace. In the midst of Life's storms we find Him, but never an escape from storms. We are not disillusioned; Christians are not exempt. Storms come to all on this earth, in this life.

Theologians offer various explanations for these storms; personal growth, character development, testing, or to bring glory to God as an example to others. At times, we do not know the whys and we may not have an answer this side of eternity. But our trust holds firm in Him.

The storms will come and go; they will subside and we will grow from those times of life. BUT, what happens when a Tsunami hits? A Tsunami is not a typical storm that breaks over us and darkens the sky for a moment. A storm comes with the knowledge that at the end, a rainbow will spread across the once darkened sky and bring us blue again. A Tsunami comes in unexpected and completely destroys all in its path. A Tsunami wipes out miles of land mass and buildings and vegetation once occupied there. And, Tsunami's destroy people in it s path. Some escape, some who were in the right place at the right time. People who clung to a heavy structure or those who climbed higher up the mountain. But even those who escape the devastation of the Tsunami have to deal with its aftermath. There is debris and broken buildings to clean up. There are injuries to be mended and healed.

A Tsunami can hit your life in the spiritual sense as well. Its purpose is to completely destroy all you have known and all you though you were. The destruction is massive and difficult to clean up; difficult but not impossible. A Tsunami has hit our family recently. In its wake, we have lost jobs, our home, our church family, connections, reputations, and our future plans. What is left must be repaired.

Because our faith is based on God and not circumstances, whatever is lost is only temporal. God promises never to leave us nor forsake us. And, He has made the promise to us that ALL things happen for the good...............if our faith is fixed we weather the Tsunami too. We clean up the devastation as best we can, allowing God to deal with its aftermath. The Tsunami we will not forget and we must not forget. For it has change us. Whatever we thought we were, whatever our lives once were is gone. We begin again with that ever sure foundation of God's enduring love and promises. We know that His love is perfect and His plan is perfect. Although the Tsunami brings devastation, God restores, We rest in perfect peace in Him.

01/2011

The Shape of a Miracle 02/12/2011

I am an in-between person; a person who is early retired and searching for a new job. That is what I call an in-between person. Because of my in-between status I took a temporary job during the holiday season. The path I walked was not an easy one with that job. And now, as I near a new job with similar level difficulty I look towards this as a challenge that I am not eager to take.

Since the path I walked was very difficult in the temporary seasonal job, I learned just how much a physical job impacts my body. God alone held me up as I walked the warehouse floors and breathed the dusty, dirty environment. And, the challenges I faced seemed insurmountable as I struggled to communicate in an environment as loud and noisy as it was dusty and dirty.

However, there was a greater purpose than earning money in the path I walked. Because of my voice disability it does not lessen the need to talk to people, even in a difficult setting. They are curious and I am more than willing to tell my story; especially how God strengthened me and enabled me to walk out this path.

In conclusion I am willing to go where God sends me. I remember praying to God and many times offering myself to Him. Send Me, I said to God. I will go where You send me and speak to those people sent to me of Your sustaining power. However, in my mind I was picturing telling my story after my miracle of a complete restoration of my cancer induced voice-loss; instead I tell my story in my current state --- voice challenged.

This current state is one of weakness, dependency, complete reliance on God for each day. That is where I live; needing God each moment. And because of this state, I wonder now if God intended all along that the miracle I sought and the miracle He gave were one in the same after all. My miracle was a restored voice, beautiful, one that would rival even an angle's voice; His miracle is a restored soul. Either way, my life is a miracle.

Since the cancer and the loss of my vocal chords, I have been privileged to speak to business groups, teens, unwed mothers, Christian groups, and co-workers, nursing students, and fellow cancer victims; to large groups and small ones. Now it seems my greatest audiences are people. One on one contacts; a new job making new friends, learning about each other, sharing my story. In the end, sharing God.

God has truly given me a miracle; His love reaching out through my physical challenges.

And yes I thank Him and I have truly received a miracle!

02/12/2011

Can God Use Me 01/2011

Can God use you anywhere at any time regardless of circumstances, situations, inadequacies, disabilities, education, financial success or lack thereof? Are you limiting God based on your own thinking? Do you place limits on YOU by what you may believe are your giftings?

How about this? A young man, aged 27, Nick Vujicic speaks all over the world, an internationally famous motivation speaker from Australia. Oh, but may I mention he was born without limbs. That's right, no arms, no legs. Hmmmmmmmmmmm....how can HE possibly be of use to God with such extreme handicaps? How can God use him indeed?! Nothing is impossible with God, and WE cannot and should not put Him in a box to fit inside our mind's perspective of the world.

How big is your world? Is it large enough to include a person with physical or mental impairments and acknowledge that God has a purpose for them in his tapestry of life? Is your world big enough to allow God to use YOU with your flaws and imperfections or at least the ones you think you have? Could it be that those parts of you that you may not even like are the very reasons God wants to use YOU?

Recently through the holiday season I was given an opportunity with Wal-Mart.com. This warehouse is very large containing literally millions of dollars worth of merchandise which is shipped out to retail stores and customer's homes. My work was in the Exceptions Shipping Department during this time. As happy as I was to have work, there was concern of handling a physical job in a place with very high noise level. The concern was communicating on the job as my natural speaking voice was impacted from a bout with laryngeal cancer. After discussion with the HR Manager it was determined that I remain in the department based on my knowledge, experience and ability to work with the computer. To her my voice was a non-issue. That was God's plan.

My job was to research the missing products left out of the customers' carton. This research involved determining a location of the missing product and physically fetching the item(s) which involved climbing three levels in the warehouse. The work became very strenuous each day as I walked the warehouse, up and down three floors, and packing ad shipping out the cartons. The computer work involved standing all day during our 10 hour shift with only two 20 minutes breaks.

As I began to understand the gravity of the job and the physical toll to my body and my breathing, I was concerned whether I could keep the job. I found myself very fatigued and feeling sick from breathing the dirt and dust everywhere. I needed the job so desperately I knew my only hope was to cry out to God, my heavenly Father. He promised to hear every cry and to give strength to the weak.

Day after day as I climbed the stairs tears would fill my eyes from weariness and illness. I recalled the Holy Spirit's message that we were to come to God for Everything. I repeated those words every day. As I worked at the computer I softly sang songs of praise to God. I found strength would return to me and I was able to finish my shift. By Thanksgiving we were working 6 days at 12 hour shifts, and again I called on God for help. I reminded Him of what He said to our congregation a couple of months before that when we tried to solve our own problems we failed but rather we were to come to Him with our problems. In fact He wanted us to come to Him for EVERYTHING. I took Him at His Word and as I did, HE filled me anew with strength, energy, and wellness in order to complete my work. I stayed through the peak which was a total of seven weeks before being laid off; longer than I ever thought possible.

As God strengthened me physically on a daily basis, He also opened opportunities to share with co-workers. There was an appointed time that He ordained to speak to individuals on a one-on one basis. As I saw God's timing and how He placed people in my path amidst a noisy environment to hear of God's grace I was in awe. I never dreamed communication would be possible and that I be enable to share God's love even with my voice limitations.

God more than proved Himself faithful. My trust in God has served me throughout the years and many times I've experienced His miraculous power in my life and in other's lives. However, this was a very unique time of taking God literally at His Word, walking by faith, walking out faith, using the power of prayer, speaking out Scriptures, and using the power of praise to magnify God. God's power is released in us and upon us as we look to Him and walk in His ways. He will do this in YOU and YOU will be able to be of use to His kingdom no matter where you are or who you are.

As Scripture says in Ephesians 3:20 - Now to Him who is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or even imagine according to the power that works in us. This indeed was true and is true not only for me, but for you as well.

01/2011

Valentine's Day 02/14/2011

Valentine's Day! A day that means less and less as the years pass. It is to be a day for young love, marked by the thrill of a first glace, then a tentative first kiss. As the first love flickers and turns to only embers, Valentine's Day is not so important to celebrate. Rather as the embers of love turn to a sure, steady warmth dependent on mutual care instead of soaring flames that burn, that love endures.

So welcome Valentine's Day to those of us who appreciate the sustaining warmth of softly glowing embers, a fire sure and constant. A warmth that welcomes and accepts and never goes out, and never burns.

God's love is steady and constant. His love is sustaining and unmoving. Scripture says many waters cannot quench love. There is no shadow or variableness in turning. God does not change. He called us before the foundation of the world and He will keep us throughout eternity. He is our true Valentine!

02/14/2011